“What if I made the wrong choice?” I lay awake, pondering if I’d made the right choice of surgeon between two who’d suggested different types of surgery. “God, would you speak?” But how? I ... Read More about When you doubt God.
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Warded.
My children’s “Garden by the Bay” creations- we made them together on each of their visits. “Mama, next time you go for surgery again, I will remember to bring you your favorite waffle OK.” I ... Read More about Warded.
Grateful.
I awoke this morning, fearful to meet people. Especially my team members or those I wanted to appear strong before. A part of me wanted to disappear, to just say I wasn’t up to ... Read More about Grateful.
What if I lose something dear to me?
When I discovered my medical diagnosis, I couldn’t help but notice an uncanniness and specificity about it. Due to the compression of a nerve bundle in my spine in my neck, I gradually lost ... Read More about What if I lose something dear to me?
Thank you.
“No,” I say, after you offer help. “I can manage.” But I cannot. The pain singes and lances through my body like a dragon. “I will manage,” I seethe, and power through typing my out-of-office ... Read More about Thank you.
When I’m trying to make sense of my suffering.
When I first saw my MRI results, I sat there in shock. Fear and relief washed over me at the same time. Fear- because of the unknown. Relief- because things that had bewildered me in the past ... Read More about When I’m trying to make sense of my suffering.