After struggling for weeks with a persistent arm pain, and thinking it was simply a simple sports injury, I finally sought proper medical help today because the pain had worsened.
I received news today that it’s most likely a cervical condition causing nerve damage.
I’m discouraged, and grieved at how simple things like sitting, reading, running or typing have become painful.
In your time of pain, what does your mind naturally conclude? That He is chastening you, punishing you or healing you?
As I look towards a week of MRI scans, physio and doctor appts, I can’t help but be grateful for the medical landscape we have here, yet also grieve.
Today, as I held a convo with my kids about pain and their perspective on it, I was surprised by their replies.
My 6-yr old naturally said it wasn’t God punishing us at all, but that our time of pain reflects the process of His healing taking place in our lives.
I couldn’t help but tear up at her answer.
I’m afraid of what the week’s news will bring and how things will unfold.
I’m saddened by the things I can no longer do.
I’m wrestling with this season of deeper refinement and discerning what suffering means.
Yet I also know He who holds tomorrow, also holds my hand.
And maybe for today, that is enough.