Sometime last October, right after I’d returned from India from an intense Global Outbreak Response training with international experts, I received a call to standby to be deployed to Uganda to help with the Ebola outbreak.
I was tired.
Vexed. Maybe a little bit burnt out.
I wanted to stay home with my family this end-year and new-year season.
I knew we were preparing to head to Canada to visit Cliff’s family.
I knew the calligraphy exhibition was round the corner.
I noticed myself feeling anxious- when would they activate me? How would I respond? How long would I leave for again?
But in spite of my fears, I felt God ask the same simple question He’s asked me over and over in the past decade-
WILL YOU SAY YES TO ME?
Then just two days before the exhibition began, the Ugandan Ebola outbreak was declared to be officially over.
It was then that I had a revelation- God knows our needs and what we need to be committed to better than we do.
I’m learning – if only we would trust Him and say an unreserved yes to Him every single time, we can trust He knows which doors to open and shut, and how to guide us with His peace.
I’m learning- that a great deal of my anxiety is not based on reality. It’s based on a worry in the future.
If I trust in a good God who’ll show up like He did in the past in my present and future,
I can let anxiety go and live life in the present.
I’m also learning how to wait on God’s timing.
How every time He bids us to a mission, it’s a privilege to say yes.
Because though I’ve applied to half a dozen jobs in East and Southern Africa, no doors have opened.
Do I trust in His timing or do I sit and whine like a child?