Earlier this week, in subzero frost, I was sick with chills.
Stuck under the covers, I was overcome by the realness of my vulnerability.
How, in less than a month, I’m supposed to hold my debut exhibition in a sponsored public space in Singapore— but I have no firm blueprint from any vendor.
I have no idea if this will be the glorious vision God planted in my heart to raise funds for a cause close to my heart, or if it will all fall flat.
Did Noah feel that way building the ark?
Did he think- “What if it never rains? Worse, what if it sinks?”
“Does it get easier for you to trust?” A friend asked. “Since God always comes through?”
“Funnily no, because the stakes feel high, every time.” Tears gushed.
It was then that I realized that’s what faith is. Faith is risk. It is taking a leap when to stay would be safer.
When I wrote and painted the book “Kitesong” when I was 18, I cried every night wondering if it would raise the $100’000 needed to build the permanent home needed for the 30 orphaned girls whom I got evicted with. What was at stake? Their futures.
Yet, when I look at the photo of almost the same girls, seated ten years apart in nearly the same positions, I’m reminded- that our comfort is not an option when the stakes are high. Believing in a dream takes everything you have and putting it on the line.
It feels vulnerable, like you’ll hurt, you’ll fall, you’ll lose everything if God doesn’t come through.
I put my reputation on the line when “a Taste of Rainbow” was published about my recovery from anorexia and depression at my graduation from medical school. When we launched “I love you” on our wedding day, we ‘lost’ $60’000 worth of proceeds for 2 anti-sex trafficking ministries.
The truth is, daring to dream takes just that- a little bit of chutzpah to RISK.
If you’re waiting on a dream today, this is the time to do it. 🌈
🎁📖Feel free to order and gift the books representing dreams, love and courage at www.kitesong.sg