Thank you all for your encouragement & prayers.
After 3 very long days, I’ve finally had my 1st good night of sleep.
While melatonin and HIIT helped, I felt it was an epiphany I had that ushered in the biggest breakthrough.
I hadn’t realized how subconsciously, I was holding back.
Fearful that if I gave in to Canada, I would be swallowed up by the same old sadness that so shrouded my old season here.
So deep inside, I held onto my old routines in Singapore.
Cooked and cleaned for the kids. Stayed home.
Did my own home workouts.
Missed my old friends. Hustled to keep up with work emails.
I was miserable.
My body was in Canada but my spirit was not.
So in the day, I napped to escape.
At night, my mind wandered to my life back home.
Jetlag got worse every day.
But my breakthrough came today when Cliff brought me to my favorite woods. There, before the beauty of the river, I felt God say to “yield.”
I realized that, I no longer need to be afraid. I don’t have to hold back.
Canada is not a bad place. It was the season that was hard, and that’s over now.
This is where we had our magical wedding.
It is where I had two home births.
It is where my husband’s life was saved through a free liver transplant because of its welfare system.
I felt God say,
“You can relax. It’s a new season. There is beauty, even in winter.”
If you’re afraid to return to an old place, know this- God can make old things new.