At 2am in Africa I awoke, heart lurching.
It was 8am in Singapore.
As if my mother-heart knew, I awoke at the time Sarah-Faith would pass through the gates of kindy on her second day of school.
Why was I not there? What had I done? How did she feel?
Tears welling, I willed myself back to sleep, rising later only to find words of encouragement sent to me by a friend:
“In your obedience, is His provision. When one fears God and obeys, God will protect and establish one’s children. I believe in your obedience, that the Lord will watch over Cliff, Sarah-Faith and Esther-Praise 
”
As I went to the field today for a community health outreach, a dozen hungry children at the community soup kitchen ran to me, eagerly pressing their rice-stained hands into my thighs, touching hair they had never seen, bursting into song.
How I missed the squishy touch of my own children’s hugs, of warm bodies pressed into mine, of made-up songs to the lyrics of “I LOVE YOU MAMA”.
I dream that someday, perhaps we would be together serving in the field.
I don’t know when or where that might be, but I do know one thing- that till then, as Mama does His work to look after His children, I must trust He will look after mine.
“Blessed are those who fear the Lord, who find great delight in his commands.
Their children will be mighty in the land…” – Psalm 112:2
*Thank you to those of you who have reached out to Cliff to love on our children and fill the gap I have left behind.
**Masks were put right back on after photos.