Today was a rough day. My official first day back at work and ministry, I wrapped the day up with an email that shocked me.
For the 2nd time in 2 years, a major sponsor I needed to come through for me for a huge project withdrew financial support.
In times like these, I often sit, stunned. I am tempted to cry out of desperation.
Did I hear God wrongly? Was I foolish or faithful? Is this my turn to put in my all?
I sat here, watching the sunset, remembering a few things.
Unlike what I’ve been through before-
Cliff is not in a major liver crisis.
I do not have untreatable depression.
The kids are healthy.
We now have a house to live in.
With that, I think I can live another day.
I want to believe this valley is just part of a greater story. That one day I’ll get to preach about how God came through for us again.
I want to believe all of that. It is very hard when you’re left in the lurch.
But I want to. I will try.