For both pregnancies, I carried girls.
Both times, I carried a deep pain which lingered, telling me “you’re not good enough.”
Both times, I heard people telling me, “Don’t worry, it will be a boy next time.”
My shame grew.
I first began to avoid the people who spoke these words over me. But soon, I became angry. At people. At the church at large. Then finally, at God.
But the truth is this- I ate the fruit of shame.
While I blamed others then for speaking shame over me, the truth is that I put it to my own mouth.
Can we, unlike Adam and Eve, confess our part to play— no matter the circumstance? In spite of generational sin, traumatic upbringing, unfair circumstances, can we bravely own up to the shame we let grow?
Because I really believe, that’s the first step to freedom.
When we forgive, others and ourselves, that’s when freedom truly can find us.
As I shared the message “Unbound and Set Free,” again yesterday, I spoke of the COURAGE we all need to first confront ourselves, and repent.
I spoke of the COMPASSION we need for others, and ourselves to forgive ourselves— for we all are broken.
I spoke of the CONNECTION we all need to safe people to hold space for us.
And finally, I spoke of CHRIST who can free us.
If you’re struggling with shame, would you ask God for courage, compassion, connection and Christ’s love today?
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