To all the Mamas out there, I just want to say— you’re good enough.
Lately, I’ve found myself holding back tears more often than I’d like, thinking about the burden I’ve been or might be in future to my kids. Why did I need spine surgery, why did I get injured, when am I going to next weigh everyone down.
And I realized, I’ve been carrying this burden since Day 1 of Mama-hood, this sandbag of not being good enough.
And I know, I’m not alone.
I’ve been receiving messages from Mamas out there, telling me how my writing has helped them cling onto God through their nervewracking biopsies and health treatments, their dark days and valley seasons… and I just want to say— Mamas, let’s stop telling ourselves that someday, we’ll be well, better, good enough to be that Mama we wanted to be for our families.
Maybe you believe you’ll be good enough when you get over depression, when you get enough sleep, when you recover from your health issues, when your big work saga blows over. But maybe, that’s just not true.
What if I told you— you’re good enough where you were, where you are, walking through those trenches.
I walked out of the knee surgeon’s office today holding back tears. “Why are you crying,” he asked. I didn’t want to tell him how surgery wasn’t that simple of an option for me, how being in crutches for 6 weeks would kill me knowing I’d burden my husband and kids.
And then I got home to find my 4-year old patting me on my back, “Mama, if one day you need crutches, I will hold you up like this, like that-and I will walk with you, okay?”😭
Friends, I’m learning, we don’t have to arrive to be good enough. Through our brokenness, we’re stitching faith and trust in our hearts; Through our disappointments, we’re sinking in roots, deep and impenetrable; Through our frailties, we’re singing hymns of victory— all for generations to witness, to emulate, to celebrate.
So, savour every moment. Let’s not end the year saying we hope next year will be better. Because to your loved ones, it’s ALL been good- even the bad days. You’re loved. You’re good enough. You always have been.