You’d think it’s get easier but it never does-
– saying yes, that is.
At my talk last night at the Christian Medical Dental Fellowship dinner, I finally spilled the beans:
– that days ago, a day after I returned home from India from an intense week of 17-hour workdays simulating an international outbreak response, I got a text message from my supervisor- “Standby for Ebola in Uganda.”
I knew this potentially meant another 6-week deployment.
I read the text, tears pooling in my eyes.
That night, I lay in bed, wide awake, a familiar sinking feeling in my chest.
Dread of separating from my husband and girls filled my heart. Ebola… an illness with a fatality rate between 40-100%, weighed heavy on my chest.
There’s a chance I may or may not get deployed. But I sensed God asking, “Would you say YES to Me every day until you find out? Would you count the cost, then surrender all your plans to avail yourself to Me?”
It was then that an epiphany hit- that God doesn’t just require one yes, but a SERIES of quiet yeses, won in the private victories of wrestling and tears, before we can say the BIG YES when the time comes.
If I don’t learn to say yes daily- to separation, to discomfort, to risk, to loneliness, to potentially, death, if I do not count the cost every day until the day comes, I will not be able to say an UNRESERVED yes when the call for deployment comes.
What hard thing has God called you to say yes to? If your tendency is to chuck it aside mentally until you need to face it, the truth is- you might back out when it finally beckons. 😪
If we want to win on race day, we have to say yes to training EVERY day, even when we don’t want to.
I know it’s crazy, but would you, like me, wrestle in the hard spaces, the teary places, and offer a sacrifice of praise, a daily offering of YES, because that’s the only way we can say THAT BIG YES, when it actually matters most.
Because the big yes, is in fact,made of the little yeses in our everyday lives. Would you say yes to Him today, tomorrow, and every day?